I like summer…I like vacation and being outdoors and the swimming and BBQ, but I really need my kids to go back to school. No judgment please, but it has just been very hard to manage my 4 active kids, my out of town husband and my businesses. I feel extremely guilty I can’t give my business more of my time. I feel any failure is a direct relationship to me not being there enough.
I decided I would be more hands on this summer with the kids and not hire a babysitter. The stores are in capable hands and it will give me some time to re-connect with family, friends and personal projects. Well I am seriously counting the days until summer is over. I miss work, I miss help with the kids. I could have hired someone but I HATE spending the money on child care when I don’t REALLY have to plus I really wanted to be around the kids more this summer.
Example. I decide to take the kids and dog for a bike ride today, my kids are 10, 8 and 7 year old twins. We get there with only one child crying the entire way and only one child crying all the way back. Fairly successful though after trying to go over the rules of the road and bike safety as we are walking through the neighborhood, my untrained puppy pulling at my arm and my phone ringing, I can’t help but feeling pulled in a zillion directions. All I want at that point is to get home get the dog and kids put away…nice right…and pull out my computer, phone and get working. My heart starts pounding, my blood pressure spikes, I can feel my fuse getting shorter. This is stress and anxiety and it does not matter what I do, I can’t get away from it.
Finding the balance of being home most days during the summer with the kids and still having ownership of a business is hard. Some days, like today, I wish I could tuck business away and just focus on the kids and family and my home…but who am I kidding, I would get bored.
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